Dear Old love,
Today, I would do anything to have you read this letter as I just wanted to tell you with gone, it has all become better and clearer.
I thought of love as a fairy tale, like any other teenage girl. The princess, the prince, the love and the happily ever after.
After you left me, I had nothing to believe in… My world had crushed or so I believed. People kept saying get over it, like it was an ice cream that melt because of heat! How can you get over the love of your life in two days of being abandoned? Funny thing “people” are!
I physically got over it, and tried to emotionally too but it kept coming back to me. I felt like I was stuck in a gigantic endless loop. Then, my best friend came along and taught me an important lesson of my life. I let her in, even if it took a while… I let her in my deep dark world. She didn’t want to fix me, she was ready to see me in my endless darkness and be with me. It was a choice she had, and she chose to stay. So, that’s it. That in all of that was my most important lesson about love. It is endless pool of choices, like Shakespeare famously said “to be or not to be “. I can’t disregard the good memories you gave me, but I can’t also let it cloud my judgement when I know that I wasn’t who you wanted to be with. When I chose you over a million times over and over again.
It is simple, love is simple. Love is truly seeing, and caring, about another human being’s existence and welfare. It is wanting to be there for someone, to support them and help them grow; to make a difference in someone’s life; to share in and care about someone else’s happiness and struggles other than your own. Even when it’s hard. Love is constructive not destructive . Love, real love, is not about you. Love is choosing somebody, choosing something, and choosing them, over everything else, over your ego, over yourself, unfailingly, every day.
I know I loved you beyond this universe but it wasn’t enough to bring you to choose me. And, it is okay! I am okay with it, for it made me realize what was concealed, showed me my capability to love, the strength to endure pain and most importantly to take it all constructively and move on.
So I have to thank you for making me realize what love is, how deep love is , thank you for leaving and showing me my true potential. Thank you for making me this strong person I am today and Thank you for loving me for however small duration it was.
I will always cherish the memories and keep the lessons you taught me about life.
I wish you happiness and love.